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[Sep. 26th, 2007|01:35 pm] |
lately,
i feel like i'm not suppose to be here in Memphis.
the people & town are NOT what i thought.
of course i'm waiting it out til may/august because i have a lease & school obligations.
i just dont' understand this town or why people here only care for themselves & not the majority.it's so dirty & not what i want.
no one here is like me.
i've never felt so alone in my life.
i know there is an adjustment period & i hope this passes,BUT
for now i'm unhappy. |
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| Charles is coming to town..... |
[Jul. 26th, 2007|07:30 pm] |
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There's gonna be a show on August 1st at 7:00 at Jon's house. he lives at 319 Swan Lake Dr, Clarksville TN, 37043.
$5 at the door.
Everyone/People he loves please come. I want this to be an awesome kick-off show for his band before they leave on tour!
OH and they're good too!
MORE INFO: www.myspace.com/amden & www.myspace.com/rancidbassfreak
HOLLA!
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| bad week. |
[Jul. 22nd, 2007|08:25 pm] |
my room is no longer my room. there is new furniture and the pictures of my friends are gone.
It is so weird to me that one little day of packing can make me feel ignored & not wanted in my home.
I know that in 20 days my house will be empty & when I come home I will feel like a stranger. It didn't hit me until today that I will not wake up to a 30 pound cat looking and purring at me but to a new town where I'm alone. I know oreo is an animal but I just can't help but wonder what he'll be thinking when I'm not here for 4 months & he is with one less person to adore him.
On top of this feeling I get to deal with the love of my life going on tour across the country where there will be new girls for him to admire(You know the cute/skinny/perfect girls that come to the shows with their cute hair & even cuter outfit.)UGHH.The thought of him cheating on me kills me. I feel so selfish because this is his dream and I feel like I can't be 100% happy for him.
BUT,there is a chance that amden might be coming here on the 1st for a show....that could be good.
OH and i get to be alone on my birthday for the 2nd year in a row! AWESOME!
I need to stop. |
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| orientation and explanations. |
[Jun. 22nd, 2007|12:24 pm] |
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this past monday and tuesday i attended orientation. As most of you know I don't like being out of my comfort zone and when i first meet someone I'm more likely to watch than to interact,so I went into with an optimistic spirit and and out- going mind. I failed. I guess the weekend I decided to go was the group of long life BFFS and bro hoes. I really tried to make friends in my group. it didn't work and i ended up leaving early with my parents because i was so upset.
This lead to me having a little breakdown and me finally realizing how alone I'm going to be when I get down to memphis. Of course I know I'm going to be okay and will make a group of amazing friends because I will not depend on charles to be my only friend.
I'm so afraid/excited and have been purposefully distancing myself from people because I can't count on you all to be there when I'm 3 hours away. I know I shouldn't do this I just think that by me doing this it will be a whole lot easier to say good-bye becasue it's only 7 weeks away.
In saying this I"m going to memphis on sunday until tuesday to get closer to some girls so I'll have some friends when I get down there.
I'm then going to the beach for a week. BUT when I get back from the beach and everyone else gets back from Hillmont I'll stop being a recluse for the last couple of weeks I have with you all.
i'm sorry &
I love you.
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| ranting. |
[May. 29th, 2007|02:04 pm] |
I bought this dress today, the neck has an owl on it!
This week my mom is taking some college classes in Jackson, so I am alone with my dad. It is probably the most awkard situation EVER!WE don't talk and I beg my mom to let me come to Jackson and stay with her....I'm pretty sure this is not how a father/daughter realtionship is suppose to work.
I'm done with High School.It is a weird feeling because since i'm not officially a college student i'm stuck in a position where I'm a nothing student.
ALSO, why is everyone pregnant or getting married?it makes me ridiculously jealous and at the moment i wish i was 30 so i could buy cute stuff and live with someone i love.
oh lord,this week is ridiculous. |
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| there is nothing on tv. |
[Apr. 24th, 2007|04:51 pm] |
1. What is in the back seat of your car right now?
geometry book
2. When was the last time you threw up?
april 2
3. What's your favorite curse word?
--
4. Name one person who made you smile this morning?
big ron
5. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
sitting in french class
6. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
walking
7. If you could marry any celebrity today who would it be?
john mayer
8. Have you ever been to a strip club?
no.
9. What is the last thing you said aloud?
answer the phone.
10. What is the best ice cream flavor?
karamel sutra.
11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
water.
12. What are you wearing right now?
yoga pants and tank top
13. Last food you ate?
meatball sub
14. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
no.
15. When is the last time you ran?
yesterday.
16. What's the last sporting event you watched?
hockey.
17. Last movie you saw?
casino royale.
18. Who is the last person you sent a message on myspace to?
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19. Ever go camping?
no.
20. Were you ever an honor roll student in school?
yes.
21. Do you like sushi?
sometimes.
22. Do you have a tan?
yes.
24. Do you drink your soda from a straw?
no.
25. What did your last text say?
i love you.
26. Are you someone's best friend?
yes.
28. Where is your mom right now?
in hopkinsville with papaw
29. What color is your watch?
don't own one.
31. What do you think of when you think of Australia?
finding nemo
32. Ever ridden on a roller coaster?
yes...
33. What is your birthstone?
peridot
34. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
depends.
35. What is your favorite number?
seven.
36 Do you have a dog?
no.
43. What does your first memory of your brother involve?
dont' have one.
44. Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
school.
45. Last phone call?
chuck.
46. Are you allergic to anything??
yes.
47. Favorite shoes that you wear all the time?
black flip flops.
48. What is one thing you've learned about life recently?
life is short.
49. Are you jealous of anyone?
yes.
50. Is anyone jealous of you?
no.
51. Do you own an ipod?
yes.
52. Do any of your friends have children?
yes.
53. What do you work as?
yes.
55. Do you hate anyone right now?
no.
58. How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
18.
59. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
yes.
60. What do you wish for?
can't tell. |
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| memphis. |
[Apr. 22nd, 2007|05:17 pm] |
We found our home in Country Squire. It has 2 bedrooms, 2 baths.
AND the complex and 6 swimming pools!
FRIENDS: it is such an easy drive and right across the street from SUPER TARGET, feel free to come over whenever you'd like.
ALSO, I am happy to say that
me and chuck are back together.
We both agree that even though are lives are ridiculous and different,
we were put on this earth to love the crap out of eachother.
Hope Rivers and Spires was good.
Prom is in 2 weeks!
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| will you help me?! |
[Apr. 12th, 2007|04:34 pm] |
I just got a facebook the other day and one of my networks is U.Memphis '07 and i don't know why because i added U.Memphis '11...........how can i change that so i won't seem like an idiot?!
thanks, i'm stupid.
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| 3r98274kljrawlkga. |
[Mar. 29th, 2007|05:50 pm] |
As most of you know I"m going to France on Saturday.
I am so excited But I'm aprehensive about the people going. They won't understand my purchases or my high heels or why I'm not wearing tennis shoes when we're walking 7 miles a day.
The truth is I know I"m not being practical but who knows when I'll be in France ever again, so I want to make this memorable.......
I Guess I just wish I could bring all of you loves to experience this with me.
I know this sounds ridiculous and I truly am excited I would just be with people I love than people I can tolerate.
On the other hand I'll get to experience amazing things and eat lots of chocolate eclairs...YUM! |
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| party! |
[Mar. 22nd, 2007|02:19 pm] |
Attention:
for those of you who are extremely tired of school and see it as the biggest waste of time in your life........
we only have 7 more mondays left.
holla! |
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